The funny thing
is that when you are drifting, you are still going somewhere.
To make some extra money to help pay my tuition, I started
tutoring at the Writing Center. I
found that I missed working with student writers.
Working with them one-on-one in a situation where I wasn’t
“in charge” and I didn’t have to give them a grade, I developed
confidence in my ability to help students become better writers.
I realized that no matter how I had felt about it in the past
year, I did know something about writing.
I had something to offer. That same year,
I took a creative non-fiction workshop and a non-fiction hypertext
writing class. While I
still love writing fiction, I realized that I had some skill writing
non-fiction and that I really enjoyed it.
I decided that I wanted to do a creative non-fiction hypertext as
my thesis. C.S.U. has a
graduate degree in Communication Development in the English department
that would allow such a project, so I switched programs.
It was finally starting to feel like I fit.
I even reapplied for another teaching position.
I was still scared, but I knew I had to try it again.
I also decided that I needed to find a
therapist and try to fix some of the things that had been holding me
back.
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