For
example, last night I was needing some comfort. I had started my day
with the news of the plane hijacks and crashes. I drank my bitter
morning coffee and watched as the World Trade Center Twin Towers
collapsed. I am far from home and family, (even though technically I am
a full-time Colorado resident), and I needed to be reminded of the
comfort and safety of those things. So, for dinner, I decided to make a
meal from my childhood--meatloaf, mashed potatoes and green beans. I
have never cooked meatloaf myself. Until a few years ago I was a
vegetarian and only ate hamburger again just recently, for the first
time in about ten years. I found a recipe for meatloaf in my Fannie
Farmer cookbook, bought all the ingredients and had a whole plan for
timing all three items to be finished at the same time. Remember, I said
I was a perfectionist. An element of this quality is to clean as I cook,
so that by the time I am done, so are the dishes and any other clean-up.
My husband was upstairs working on the computer and I was downstairs
preparing a meal that I fully expected would dazzle him and restore my
connection with the comforts of home and hearth.
I expected this single loaf of meat to dull the impact of the
events of 9/11, restore my self confidence, ease my loneliness and fear,
and anything else it might have the strength to rectify.
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